Swapneel Shah

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I too wanted to start and finish the Rajasthan Trip writeups in one shot… So for those who were expecting something on the same lines, am sorry to disappoint… In the last few days-weeks as I have cut down on mails, chats, phone and friends; and much more including job (Unknowingly earlier and later deliberately)… Thinking and thinking on recent and recent-past developments in life and where and how to go ahead with what’s in life as Next… I came across this writeup lyeing in drafts from long time… I know this was a bit too philosophical me…  ;-) Anyways, Publishing it-

Sharing something I wrote to a friend long back…

“Bas basics mein problem hai!!!”

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“Abhinav Bindra won the first individual gold for India!!!”

I have been seeing, from the last week so many points written and said, exchanged, emphasized, highlighted, criticized, editorials, TV journalists, experts, sports personalities, etc. etc. I too want to chip in with my one cent… With all these things which most of us have read, heard, seen, talked, and even quarreled; its been more of what the government should do, what the sports committee should do, what this entity should do, what that entity should do, what a sports aspirant should do, etc… etc… I didn’t find a single article that said what should I do… Trying to find the answer to this…

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When I started writing a few lines on paper/wordpad couple of years back, it was a different story and with a different aim… Also the intended THE END was different… Now as I migrate from Spaces to WordPress I wish to give this a broader spectrum…

Now let me import all my previous blog entries from Spaces to WordPress.

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How do I start??? thinking… thinking… thinking from a few days… or maybe months! A better question would be from where to start… Lets start from the beginning… Yes, it will make this write-up a LOT bigger, but then please bear it with me… You are just reading, I am writing… or rather, its not just written, its lived…So, the story starts from 1st year Engineering… Vidya Pratishthan’s College of Engineering, Staff Quarters, Baramati. Wait a minute… Why am I writing this? Lets me first try to answer this… I am writing this because, because… I want to see how have I been with people around me… What has been the reason why I miss some people that mean so much to me… And at the same time I am close to some people who equally mean so much for me… I want to find an answer to this… Though I believe that all my actions have had a decent rationale; I just want to re-consider everything… Try to see the things from a consolidated view point…

Ok so lets start the story again, yes from Staff Quarters… I entered into a world of lot of alien people with whom I had to spend 4 years! I was a reserved, excessively introvert, shy guy with a lot of inferiority complex. I didn’t knew how to talk to people, make friends, at least even mix up. Beyond that I had different eating habits, could not sleep with mosquitoes, but at the same time could not sleep with the fan on!

I used to spend most time in college and used to wonder what to do after college… I used to go to terrace stare at the stars to spend my time… I used to feel shy to ask someone to accompany me to canteen and used to miss breakfast because I used to feel awkward to go to Canteen all alone…

I had dreams… But had them just for the sake of having them… Never felt that I should have live the dreams… live life… live dreams! than just; than just have them… Never felt that I should try and bring dreams to reality… Actually didn’t knew that dreams can come to reality if one tries… Or didn’t knew there is something called dreams and reality… “Swapneel- swapsshah in dreams!” That’s what my name means -A person who lives in dreams…

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Shabd! a movie I saw last night… Was a good one! liked it… was different… The Hero in the movie is a writer who writes true stories… and the movie revolves around a story that he writes and then lives at the same time… And in the end messes up his life as well as the story as he could not decide the end… So I think I should write the end first and then maybe continue with the story… This should help me not mess up the story… jokes apart… I am seriously thinking what will I generate out of this… loads of thinking and writing… hours spent!!! At the end… end… end… I think that I should be able to justify to the people that my actions were not that cruel or insensitive or materialistic or money-minded or career-minded or just driven by passion to do something… Or I think that they should understand my perspective and don’t take me something like the HEAVY words (that I have used in the previous sentence)… Or give an explanation why I drastically changed so much? Or make them realize that how right I am and how wrong they are or vice-versa… Or set up a discussion forum to discuss and discuss and discuss… Or just keep this as a memory for myself… Or send this write up to people to earn criticism/praise/suggestions/comments… Or just keep this as a memory for myself…Honestly, I am writing this for my friends, people I am associated with and all the people who mean so much for me… So that I am able to share a perspective with them that has given me… life! an identity… self-respect… calmness… confidence to build something… a feeling that I can bridge the gap between dreams and reality… or have dreams that are still bigger, wilder, crazy and real…

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