Swapneel Shah

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Rajasthan Trip – A Mother…

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…This post is part of the Rajasthan Trip series of posts where I have recorded memories and experiences from the trip…

 

A mother...

A mother...

The train was on a halt for some time now… It was Bhopal Junction… Around 23:30 hours… Got down… Stretched myself… Roamed around for few minutes… Thought of getting my Mobile phone and BlackBerry batteries charged… Got the chargers out from my bag… Walked on the platform from boogie to boogie to find vacant and working charging point… Found one past the Pantry Car… Started with phone on the free socket while the other was taken by another young male… Just as the train moved a lady arrived with her daughter and sat down in the lobby… One of those beggar women with her child… She took her daughter in her lap, made her comfortable and covered her with her Saree ‘pallu’…

I was standing mum like a statue swaying with the train, and changing positions from one leg to other every few minutes… Guess I was better sleeping… Frustrated standing in the night just to charge idiot phones (sometimes wonder if we own a phone or vice-versa), I started walking back towards my Boogie… 1st boogie to cross was Pantry Car and it was locked!!! There was no option but to wait for the next Station to come so that I could walk back from the platform to the other side… Just felt like hitting myself!!! Dam!!! Walked back… Plug-ed in my BlackBerry this time… Powered it up and checked train schedule… Next Station Bina… Arrival 1:40 am… That was another One and Half hours!!! Uff, well, Ummm… @#$@%#^@#% How silly was that??? Read the rest of this entry »

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Chikki ghya… chikki… … Lonavala chi Chikki…

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Chikki

Chikki (Strawberry flavor)

I was sleeping… or well actually trying to sleep on the top berth of my compartment… It was raining steady outside… And I was shivering inside… Somehow the chaddar was not providing enough warmth… I heard the train leaving Lonavala Station… The irritating noise of on-station hawkers faded, and things were going calm… Could listen only to the helpless slow movements of the train in the Ghats now… And occasionally some in-train sellers… … …

Chikki ghya… Chikki… … Lonavala chi Chikki…” (Have some Chikki… Chikki… Lonavala’s Chikki…)

[Chikki is a traditional ready-to-eat Indian sweet made usually from groundnuts\sesame seeds\dry fruits\Coconut and jaggery.]

Didn’t sound like a regular seller… I gave a cautions ear…

“Chikki ghya… Chikki… Lonavala chi Chikki…”

Sounded like a old trembling voice… female… pause…

“Chikki ghya… Chikki… Lonavala chi Chikki…”

This time a bit firm voice… Looked like she took a deep breath for this sale call… I turned and then took a peek out from my Chaddar…

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My Life Insurance plan…

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I saw the Kya aapko Kam Insurance Lene ki Bimari (KILB) add campaign by AEGON Religare and I thought of writing some of my views and experiences that I have had with Insurance… Of course, I am NOT gonna write on topics like Why Insurance? Which Company? How much? should one go for money back or pure insurance? etc. I guess there are already 100s of  articles on web for them…

This is my 4th fiscal where I am adding on insurance policies to my portfolio. When I thought of taking insurance, I had lot of surfing throughout the web that gave me numerous ideas and confusions… I decided to go for a Money Back policy over pure insurance… So those against Money Back policies may drop reading here… This write up does not consider Money Back policies over Pure Insurance polices or vice-versa…

So I decided on Money back policy and did a custom plan to take a money back policy each year so that my returns from earlier policies in turn pay my next premiums… Also after a initial bust in the premiums the rest years premiums remain constant and fairly low… Lets take an example… Read the rest of this entry »

Impressed!!!

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Re framing something that I wrote for a friend…

Impressed!!! I see that people use this word ‘Impressed’ with me with what I am today… (Though I honestly and strongly believe what I have tried was something I should have at this stage in life and there is NOTHING extra-ordinary that I could do or achieve)…

Well, yes Off course you feel good when someone uses ‘Impressed’ for you but I somehow don’t feel that this really makes any difference to anyone… People get impressed and then… then… thats it!!! nothing much after that… Something like that guys dressing sense is impressive… So what after that??? Maybe thats just a way to take note of something that is toooo short lived… Maybe a fraction of second!!! and then boooom… Its gone!!! Maybe people don’t even think that there can be something after that… and this is where we all fail… We get ‘impressed’ with something (sometimes very easily), i.e. we notice something, it attracts you, you feel that its good and you feel like you should be in those shoes… maybe talk about it to your neighbor… and then… then just let it go??? thats unfair!!! not to the person who has Impressed you but for the person that got impressed! and he then slips of chance to make this Impression lead to Inspiration… Like for in this example, I would also take a cautious effort to improve my dressing sense…

Most of us knowingly or unknowingly use the word inspiration when they want to say Impressed… When we are just Impressed and thats it!!! this is more fatal… and hence maybe we stay where we were… and don’t move an INCH!!!

Every time you convert an Impression to an Inspiration… It works for you!!!

Swapneel*

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March 2, 2008 at 8:01 pm

My first Salary…

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Today I received a bonus and thoughts ran down back to my 1st salary… Hummm… Everyone knows what the 1st salary means for an individual… It also meant so much for me… So many things keep on rolling in your mind as you see the money deposited in your account… Pulling out a mail from my Patni .pst that I wrote to a friend when he got his 1st salary in Aug 2006. It reflects my feelings when I got my 1st salary… It also has reflections of my recent past when I wrote this mail…

Sharing it with you-

“My memory of 1st salary… 9,849… everyone in my batch of 40 people who joined Patni Computer Systems Ltd. with me were enjoying… (In their own ways)… I was dormant… cool, unmoved… Read the rest of this entry »

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January 7, 2008 at 8:02 pm

Am back…

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Am back… would have loved to say that I “am back with a bang!”… But sadly and unfortunately that’s not the case… TODAY I got the news for which I was waiting for all these days… WRONG one!!! Heard it… eyes got wet for a second… But I did not allow the tears to drop off from the eyes… Just swallowed them off!!! and I am back to where I left… well, honestly not where I left… Just have some lines to say from Shahrukh’s movies-
Sach hai ke dil to dukha hai,
lekin humne yeh socha hai,
dil ko hai gum kyun?
aankh hai nam kyun?
hona hi hai jo hua hai…
uss baat ko jaane hi do,
jiska nishaan kal ho na ho…
-kal ho na ho

so lets just drop off this chapter with the words:
Life moves on, but memories don’t…

So here I am going with life! again… once again… 🙂
Now going back to complete some things that I left in this document…

Good morning! 🙂 Its a morning after a dark night… Was just reading what I have written until now and I think that the things are coming up good… though in bits and pieces… they still give the essence of my thoughts, that I wanted to share… Maybe will visit the stuff again after some time so that I can re-order and re-phrase some chunks so that they are better expressed… Collecting some chunks of lines from some mails that I have written in the past… They should do the talking… And I would also get some moments for recovering from the biggest set-backs in life…

Swapneel*

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December 2, 2007 at 8:03 pm

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THE END…

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Going through a rough patch in life… I think that the most rough patch… Wrong patch… A insane patch!!! This has never happened to me… Never dream that this will happen to me…. The equations and things have changed, changed… changed to…. … something… cant express!!! Don’t know what to write and how… or… don’t know!!! Everything is extreme… and nothing can help… I cannot do anything but just see… Just see… and do nothing… nothing at all!!! I cannot write this to anyone, cannot express… Keeping everything to myself, without expressing to anyone! Cannot talk to anyone and get out of it… Don’t know what this all will lead me to… Don’t know… Cant think… fear to think about the future, cannot even think… everything is choked… cant hold this in me for more… Its eating me… eating all of me… My mind, body, myself… and everything with it….. If I am able to survive this, then I can survive anything… Time, time… I cannot hold my patience now… Feeling like time is dead… I am at the same place, where I was about 40 days back… Everything is still… Breathless… Just holding on… everything!!! Trying to… Don’t know when this will burst off… and how… and what all things will happen… Sometimes, feel that everything has come to an end!slowly and gradually, inch by inch… everything around me is dissolving… disappearing… Have started to keep away from people, ignoring phone calls, sms… events… even if they are significant and happening to most important people in life… am not able to participate… enjoy… talk… express… laugh… share light moments… cry… joy… enjoyment… love… care… and everything… Cannot get involved in them… even if I try to force myself forcefully… nothing moving… stale… pale, off-color, colorless!!!

Making another try to get out of things… hummmmmm… cant!!! cannot gather the courage… because can see things ending… ending… finished… THE END…………. life!!!

Will continue if anything remains in life…

Swapneel*

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November 20, 2007 at 8:04 pm

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